On Sunday we lost Lucy, our beloved dog of 12 years. I knew that this day would come at some point, but I wasnt ready. She was her normal, happy self on Saturday. While she was taking her nap in her normal spot, she never woke up. It gives me peace to know that she was happy before she left and didnt appear to be in any distress, she seemed just fine and happy, even before that nap. I think I just expected for there to be some signs that this day was coming. I just wasnt ready. But are are you ever ready to lose someone you love?
Its hard to not get caught up in everyday life and take things for granted. Take a minute today to appreciate everyone and everything in your life. So quickly things can change.
Strange...how can one feel grateful and sadness at the same time?
I will miss your smile and your wagging tail. A smile and a tail? Yes, only two of your endearing traits. I'll miss seeing you balancing on the curb when we took our walks; dogs don't usually do that, to which you'd probably have answered, "but I'm not a dog". I always envisioned you holding an umbrella while walking on a tightrope. I miss your rationale that if someone crosses their legs, it meant you should come and place your paw on their foot, as though asking for a pedicure. I miss how you were always happy to see me, actually, you were thrilled to greet anyone who came to the door, sure they were here to see you and slightly frustrated that I'd get in the way. I miss how you'd wag your tail when I walked past, no matter how tired you were. You definitely knew you were loved. I miss your presence as a member of our family. You brought us much joy and I'm so glad you were with us.
Sadness and grateful? Almost sounds oxymoronic...my sadness will lessen over time but my memories of you, the funny times, the joy, these things I will always be grateful for. Another lesson in life.
Eli and Sophia